<?xml version="1.0" encoding="utf-8"?>
<!-- If you are running a bot please visit this policy page outlining rules you must respect. http://www.livejournal.com/bots/ -->
<feed xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" xmlns:lj="http://www.livejournal.com">
  <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx</id>
  <title>Lizzy</title>
  <subtitle>Lizzy</subtitle>
  <author>
    <name>Lizzy</name>
  </author>
  <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/"/>
  <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom"/>
  <updated>2006-08-03T18:34:46Z</updated>
  <lj:journal userid="977094" username="xxwithoutyouxx" type="personal"/>
  <link rel="service.feed" type="application/x.atom+xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom" title="Lizzy"/>
  <link rel="hub" href="http://pubsubhubbub.appspot.com/"/>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:95928</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/95928.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=95928"/>
    <title>I will be an alien abductee no more!</title>
    <published>2006-08-03T18:34:46Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-03T18:34:46Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So, there is nothing quite like the anticipation of having a giant computer chip ripped from your body.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yes it is true... the implant is coming out...today...in like hours...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;uggghh. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i hate this part.  and i'm starving cuz they don't let you eat anything for a million hours beforehand. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;here's to another scar coming my way.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:95697</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/95697.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=95697"/>
    <title>Sad News</title>
    <published>2006-06-20T18:16:08Z</published>
    <updated>2006-06-20T18:16:08Z</updated>
    <content type="html">For those RHS grads...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I found out that Mr. Frick passed away last Thursday, June 15th. This is very, very sad news to me, and I am sure to others. There is a very formal obituary in the Sunday Oregonian. You can view it here: &lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.legacy.com/oregon/LegacySubPage2.asp?Page=LifeStory&amp;PersonId=18191347"&gt;http://www.legacy.com/oregon/LegacySubPage2.asp?Page=LifeStory&amp;PersonId=18191347&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;There is no service planned at this time, but I am trying to contact some people to see if there might be one later on. When I find out, I will let you know. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Mr. Frick was a wonderful and caring man. He was so talented and giving, and was one of the best teachers I have had. Even though he was world famous for his talent, he came to Reynolds to spread his gifts to students. He cared for his students in so many ways. I know he helped many of us with our personal problems, and always took the time to make sure we were okay. I will miss him dearly. He was a great, great man. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Thank you, Mr. Frick, for all that you did for us. We will miss you.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:95349</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/95349.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=95349"/>
    <title>RIP part II</title>
    <published>2006-03-24T05:30:43Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-24T05:30:43Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Thanks for your comments about Murphy...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He was actually my sister's dog, but he had a special place in my heart...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He was only 2 years old, which is what makes it so sad. He ate a sock and it got stuck in his intestine and he got an infection. He had to be put down. It was terrible.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My poor nieces are devestated, as is my sister. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He was a good boy and beautiful golden retriever. And he made cute Wookie noises. And stinky farts. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;We'll all miss you Murphy!!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:95164</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/95164.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=95164"/>
    <title>Rainbow Bridge</title>
    <published>2006-03-23T20:24:20Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-23T20:24:20Z</updated>
    <content type="html">RIP Murphy&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;We love you, even though you were a dopey puppy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;See you on the other side, boy.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:94883</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/94883.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=94883"/>
    <title>Holy Shit</title>
    <published>2006-03-22T06:46:07Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-22T06:46:07Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Panic! at the Disco</lj:music>
    <content type="html">In 14 hours &lt;br /&gt;I'll be done with my &lt;br /&gt;undergraduate career. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That's fucking crazy.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:94548</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/94548.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=94548"/>
    <title>I know it's been a while, but...</title>
    <published>2005-12-19T04:59:10Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-19T04:59:10Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Johnny Mathis</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Now for a survey I did last year- thought it would be interesting to see what’s changed…:&lt;br /&gt;1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?&lt;br /&gt;Had multiple surgeries. Had a computer chip put in my body.  Got in a car accident. Got a job I like.  Tutored high schoolers. &lt;br /&gt;2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?&lt;br /&gt;Not a big resolution maker. But I really need to get on the exercise train. &lt;br /&gt;3. Did anyone close to you give birth?&lt;br /&gt;Nope&lt;br /&gt;4. Did anyone close to you die?&lt;br /&gt;No.&lt;br /&gt;5. What countries did you visit?&lt;br /&gt;None&lt;br /&gt;7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?&lt;br /&gt;Finding out what was finally wrong with my heart--That was the biggest. Directing my first play. Being in Blithe Spirit.  My car accident. Friends getting married. This was a huge, huge year with so much stuff happening, I can’t list it all. &lt;br /&gt;8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?&lt;br /&gt;Getting through it in one piece! Also, directing, pushing through, and getting my scholarship renewed.&lt;br /&gt;10. Did you suffer illness or injury?&lt;br /&gt;LOL what a loaded question for me! Yes. All of the above. Still do, but keep on keepin’ on.  Long QT is a bitch. &lt;br /&gt;11. What was the best thing you bought?&lt;br /&gt; No clue. Maybe Smallville. I never buy stuff for myself. &lt;br /&gt;13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?&lt;br /&gt;Once again, as last year, it’s not worth going into. &lt;br /&gt;14. Where did most of your money go?&lt;br /&gt;Food and movies and school. &lt;br /&gt;15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?&lt;br /&gt;I had this weird high going cuz in one day I found out I got in the play, that they may have found out what was going on with my heart, and some other big thing, and at the time it was exciting.   &lt;br /&gt;16. What songs will always remind you of 2005?&lt;br /&gt;Kelly Clarkson’s “Breakaway” album was big for me this year. &lt;br /&gt;17. Compared to this time last year, you are...&lt;br /&gt;i) happier or sadder? I think, despite the craziness of the year, I am more content knowing things I did not know before. I think I have grown a lot, and that makes me happy.&lt;br /&gt;ii) thinner or fatter? “Fatter” is relative, but I gained a few lbs, so I say that. &lt;br /&gt;iii) richer or poorer? richer&lt;br /&gt;18. What do you wish you'd done more of?&lt;br /&gt;Dancing. Acting. Singing--Always. Reading for fun. Being more social. &lt;br /&gt;19. What do you wish you'd done less of?&lt;br /&gt;Being depressed, but I think it was a necessary step.  &lt;br /&gt;20. How will you be spending Christmas?&lt;br /&gt;Eve will be at Aunt Sue’s and here. Day will be at Bill’s dad’s and at Jen’s. A lot. &lt;br /&gt;22. Did you fall in love in 2005?&lt;br /&gt;Stayed in love :)&lt;br /&gt;23. How many one night stands?&lt;br /&gt;None.&lt;br /&gt;24. What were your favorite TV programs?&lt;br /&gt;Smallville takes the cake, hands down.  Still loving my old faves though. Newer ones include House, Bones, Supernatural, Lost, Criminal Minds, Crossing Jordan.&lt;br /&gt;25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?&lt;br /&gt;Hating is overrated and takes waaaay to much emotional energy, so no. &lt;br /&gt;26. What was the best book you read?&lt;br /&gt;Took on the Fountainhead this summer. Also read a lot of great stuff on teaching. And some fun Nora Roberts. &lt;br /&gt;27. What was your greatest musical discovery?&lt;br /&gt;Kelly Clarkson&lt;br /&gt;28. What did you want and get?&lt;br /&gt;A new job. A renewed scholarship. More teaching experience. Being in the play. Dealing with hardship better than before.  A very sparkly ring. &lt;br /&gt;29. What did you want and not get?&lt;br /&gt;A simple solution to life’s problems. &lt;br /&gt;30. What was your favorite film of this year?&lt;br /&gt;These are always hard for me. I don’t think I have a favorite, but I enjoyed 40 Year Old Virgin, Batman Begins, Crash…there are more, maybe.   &lt;br /&gt;31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?&lt;br /&gt;Still have 5 days to go. But I’m planning on being spoiled &lt;br /&gt;33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?&lt;br /&gt;Easy. Although I stepped it up in the summer and fall, and made a pact not to wear jeans every day. &lt;br /&gt;34. What kept you sane?&lt;br /&gt;Didn’t have a whole lot of it, especially this summer! But I’d say doing the play and dance and musical theatre in the spring was really good. Also therapy!! hahaha &lt;br /&gt;36. What political issue stirred you the most?&lt;br /&gt;Politics are evil &lt;br /&gt;37. Who did you miss?&lt;br /&gt;Friends I don't see or hear from very often. &lt;br /&gt;39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005?&lt;br /&gt;What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.  &lt;br /&gt;40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year? &lt;br /&gt;“This shit is bananas! B-A-N-A-N-A-S!”</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:94314</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/94314.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=94314"/>
    <title>Like Parades? Wanna Volunteer and help a friend out??</title>
    <published>2005-11-08T18:10:17Z</published>
    <updated>2005-11-08T18:10:17Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Hey guys!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have been given a big project at work-- our biggest fundraiser of the year, in fact. Considering I work for a non-profit performing arts studio, its a pretty big deal, cuz we need the money!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;What we need are volunteers for the annual Holiday Parade that happens the day after Thanksgiving (11/25) each year. While I am scouring our families and friends, I haven't gotten the response I was looking for, and thought some of my friends might like to volunteer for a good cause!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Here's the deal: You must be 16 or older and responsible! Most of us will be standing at street barricades during the parade to make sure cars/people stay in the right spot. You will have to be at the corner of NW Park and Davis to report at 7am. Leave time for parking and dress warm! The parade is done around 11am. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sound interesting to you? Wanna bring friends/family and make an event of it? &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Let me know if this is interesting to anyone and send me a message!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Thanks guys!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Liz :)</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:94101</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/94101.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=94101"/>
    <title>And the beat goes on</title>
    <published>2005-08-26T18:14:57Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-26T18:14:57Z</updated>
    <content type="html">This week has been really busy, and is not over yet. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I did get a little reprive today, and am going to be watching the twins later, and then go to work at 5pm.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My boss is out of town this week, so I have been holding down the fort at work, meaning I've been there every day, and have had phone calls forwarded to my cell when I am not there. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Went to Alice's b-day party on Sunday! It was really nice and bill and I had a good time :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Have been watching Smallville, seasons one and two this week. Totally hooked. Have to go to Costco tomorrow to get season 3, and season 4 comes out on 9/13. My new favorite hottie is Michael Rosembaum, who plays Lex Luthor on the show. EEEEEEE!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This morning I did a lot of chores, since the parentals are at the coast for the week. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Finally went to see a medical councelor this week, and have another appointment for next week, so I can try to get my life somewhat under control and learn to deal with my medical problems. She is really nice. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;She gave me this interesting book to look at about dealing with chronic illness and dealing with the "imperfect life." So far, its been pretty interesting, and a lot of what she is talking about, I am going through.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Well, I have to get ready to go soon. Later.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:93950</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/93950.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=93950"/>
    <title>Oh, come on.</title>
    <published>2005-08-20T01:26:46Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-20T01:26:46Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Hear Me-- Kelly Clarkson</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Sooooooooo......&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I think I'm rather depressed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This is a real pain in the ass for me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am not usually one to have breakdowns, but I just feel so overwhelmed, like I can't get out from under myself. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Stupid crying fits, angryness, tiredness.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Gah.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sitting the twins was tiring today, but forced me into a better mood. It is hard to be completely grumpy with two of the cutest babies giggling at you.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The stones are gone, which is good. But apparently, that was not enough, cuz the doc said the nausea was some tummy virus. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Delicious. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;All I have to say is:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This shit is bananas: B A N A N A S.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:93448</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/93448.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=93448"/>
    <title>When does it end?</title>
    <published>2005-08-18T17:02:48Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-18T17:02:48Z</updated>
    <content type="html">These stupid stones. I swear.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I get to go back in this morning cuz my doc wants to see me immeadeatly for more tests and an appt cuz I got so nauseaus yesterday. Ugh. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;If I wasn't waking up anxious about completely unrelated things, this might not be so...icky.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The last couple of days haven't been so bad, till last night. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Worked a lot on Tuesday. Went to Maddi's b-day party yesterday. So cute. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Work is stressing me out a little, but way more than it logically should be. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I don't like this space. Keeps pulling me down. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Its times like this when billy is a saint.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:93380</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/93380.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=93380"/>
    <title>xxwithoutyouxx @ 2005-08-14T21:29:00</title>
    <published>2005-08-15T04:53:16Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-15T04:53:16Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Law and Order CI</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Been rather grumpy today.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Finished two books this weekend though. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Passed a couple stones, still more to go, giving me some trouble. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i know, bitch, bitch, bitch. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i'm sorry. i can't seem to help it right now. i know its just annoying, cuz its annoying me, but i can't seem to get out of this funk i've been in since thursday. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i really don't want to work tomorrow, although, it might be a good thing. get me out of the house, distracted. i just hate feeling crappy. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;today i vaccuumed with the new vac. it was amusing.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;god, i'm just pissed off at my body right now. It's been a real freak this year, and its dumb. Yes, i do realize there are worse things i could have. but it doesn't make dealing with the things i do have any sweeter.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i'm not a hypochondriac for god sake. the things are real. i talk about them here cuz it's a place to vent. its not the only thing in my life. But it does get me down now and again. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I need like a happy injection or something. jesus. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Whatever. None of it matters anyway. i'm tired of listening to myself now.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:93042</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/93042.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=93042"/>
    <title>I have a rock band in my kidneys!</title>
    <published>2005-08-14T16:44:15Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-14T16:44:15Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Well, better this morning with a full night of sleep&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(finally!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;passed some stones yesterday, but I think there are still some lingering. I will flush them out. Oh yes.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;No one tells you how hard it is to drink a lot!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yesterday was spent in quiet with a book and my pajamas. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I also watched Million Dollar Baby. Talk about the least uplifting movie. Prolly shouldn't have watched it yesterday of all days.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In other news, been working a lot. Also started babysitting the twins, which is a job, but they are so damn cute. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Annika's b-day party was last week, and full of amusement. I can't believe she is six. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Maddi will be five tomorrow. Ahhhhh!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Happy Birthday tomorrow Anya!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Here I go to flush out my rock band.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:92817</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/92817.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=92817"/>
    <title>Yes, I realize I only write to complain, but...</title>
    <published>2005-08-13T11:41:31Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-13T11:41:31Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Conan</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I just don't give a shit at this particular moment.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;NOTE: If you don't want to read about my crazy body and its compliants, stop reading here. I'm too damn retarded and tired to do an lj cut. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;*******&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;GAHHHHHHHHHH!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So the latest in my crazy world is...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;KIDNEY STONES!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yes, my friends, I have been shacked up with "several small stones in each kidney."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And while it's super fun to have these roomates, I really think they need to move out now. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Granted, the bloody urine and the nausea are not the worstpf things in this world, but COME ON!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This is why I am up at 4:25am and have not gotten a decent night sleep in like a week. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Nothing like having to drink 3 quarts of liquid a day to keep you peeing either. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;You don't even want to know what I have to do when i pee.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And for more irony, the Tums and anti-acids i love so dearly...are the cause of the stupid things and make them worse!!! So I can't even take Tums for the stomach!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Vomit!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I really really want to sleep. Yes i do. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;See this is bringing me closer to that mental edge, you know? Anxiety back like crazy (was up last night with that), this thing, stupid heart, eyes, I hate! HAHAHH! I don't even care that I'm bitching right now. I'll just become a hermit and not have to worry about it!! But I worry obsessively about EVERYTHING ELSE so it doesn't matter!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;WHY AM I UP AT 430 AM?!!?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And for once in my life, my appetite sucks, but I feel like I'm gaining weight cuz I'm so damn bloated from all the fluid! Fuckers!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;TMI TMI I know but just don't care. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;One thing after another after another... i know you saying, but Liz, you don't have it so bad,&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;and that is true&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;but I wish my body and mind would clue into that. Really. Would be nice. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And I'm all aloneeeeeeeeeeee! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;so done.................</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:92464</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/92464.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=92464"/>
    <title>Holy Crap</title>
    <published>2005-07-29T04:55:53Z</published>
    <updated>2005-07-29T04:55:53Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Today was just tiring.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ended up getting not-fun sick at 4am randomly.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Then got a pleading call from my boss to come in early.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So one piece of toast and some wheat thins got me through what was supposed to be a 4 hour shift, but turned into an 8.5 hr shift.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;TIRED.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now i'm looking forward to my rice-a-roni!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:92178</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/92178.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=92178"/>
    <title>Update-orama!</title>
    <published>2005-07-21T17:51:12Z</published>
    <updated>2005-07-21T17:51:12Z</updated>
    <content type="html">WaH!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Got my car back! Whooohooo! And the wheather finally equals summer! gah!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Babaysitting w/ Les for 5 chillens friday and saturday. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;ummm, working!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i really want some time to go to the beach house. But everyone in my family has already "reserved" the time. That and bill and i are never off at the same time. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Lame.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:92123</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/92123.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=92123"/>
    <title>Yo</title>
    <published>2005-07-15T04:10:57Z</published>
    <updated>2005-07-15T04:10:57Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So i haven't updated in a while, so i felt i should.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;the wedding on saturday was nice. weird to have friends getting married.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;may possibly get my car back tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;went back to the doc again... their taking me off the meds so i can faint and they can record it. it is weird that this is both a good thing and a bad thing. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;i think my brain function is retarded right now!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:91886</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/91886.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=91886"/>
    <title>xxwithoutyouxx @ 2005-07-02T19:27:00</title>
    <published>2005-07-03T02:33:31Z</published>
    <updated>2005-07-03T02:33:31Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Its weird to see all my friends from high school getting older and married and all that stuff. It makes me think how fast life goes and how someday in the future I too will be a "grown up."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have 2 friends getting married in the next two weeks. Whoa. I'm so happy for them, and it just gets me all girly and thinking about weddings, which is funny, cuz thats a long way off for me :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Mer's shower was nice today. Lots of delicious cookies :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Possible hanging with friends tomorrow afternoon which is exciting! With no car, I've been reluctant to ask anybody to hang because of transportation issues, but when they offer to drive from Aloha to Gresham for fun, I say thats a friend!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Wellness to everyone, and sorry to those I have neglected lately...I realize that I am actually very antisocial a lot of the time and it takes me a bit to get out of it ;/&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Meow.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:91543</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/91543.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=91543"/>
    <title>Cuz I Need to Update?</title>
    <published>2005-06-30T16:52:13Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-30T16:52:13Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Born to be Wild</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Hey all.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So, let's see...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Lots of being at home and relying on parentals for rides, as my car is still unknown in its destructionness. This makes me feel like being a teenager again in a way i don't like! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The stupid paperwork for the accident has managed to piss me off to no end. &lt;br /&gt;Killing.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anyhoo...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Doctors not communicating with each other is slightly amusing, but also dumb. PICK UP THE PHONE! Egos are stupid. I think my Kasier doc disagrees with the St.V's doc about me not having some extra problem on top of the QT. Of course, this is unknown cuz they don't talk. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This equals option 1) Go off medicine and see if something fun happens while i still have the loop recorder in&lt;br /&gt;or&lt;br /&gt;option 2) Diffibrulator. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I go with #1 cuz diffibs are no fun.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In other news...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Been working a lot. Its good for me and it equals $$ eventually! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Also doing the musical workshop (and have convinced other family memebers to do so). &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And I'm doing tap. cuz tap is fun.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I see Bill in chunks cuz our schedules are opposite which sucks ass. But I will see him monday. *sigh*&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Well, everyone have a safe 4th weekend and I'm sorry to those who have suckiness happening.&lt;br /&gt;Be well!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:91309</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/91309.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=91309"/>
    <title>Today I Learned that I Can Really Scream.</title>
    <published>2005-06-19T06:25:38Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-19T06:25:38Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Today was bad.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Coming home from work, sitting at a red light and 162nd and Glisan.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Minding my own business.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I was on Glisan.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Truck going too fast on 162nd hits car making a right who is stopped for a pedestrian.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That car flies straight into my car, which hits the car stopped next to me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm glad I'm not dead.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Panic ensues. Very nice people rush to the aid of us. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm freaking out cuz of a)accident and b)heart condition that doesn't like accidents.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Funtimes.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ambulance ride.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3 hours at urgent care.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Whiplash.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But not dead from accident or my heart.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Scary as all hell.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Bye, bye car.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So grateful for the nice paramedics, EMT's, cops and bystanders.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Nothing like a 4 car crash to re-evaluate your day.</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:90950</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/90950.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=90950"/>
    <title>la la la la la nah nah nah nah</title>
    <published>2005-06-16T05:33:36Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-16T05:33:36Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Dissociatives- Lifting The Veil From The Braille</lj:music>
    <content type="html">billy took lots of pics&lt;br /&gt;of my new hair cut!&lt;br /&gt;SHORTY PANTS!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt; &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i14.photobucket.com/albums/a330/moxphan/DSC00630_00.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i14.photobucket.com/albums/a330/moxphan/DSC00632_00.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i14.photobucket.com/albums/a330/moxphan/DSC00634_00.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i14.photobucket.com/albums/a330/moxphan/DSC00644_00.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i14.photobucket.com/albums/a330/moxphan/DSC00643_00.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="http://i14.photobucket.com/albums/a330/moxphan/DSC00623_00.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid2"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:90856</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/90856.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=90856"/>
    <title>*sigh*</title>
    <published>2005-06-08T05:18:35Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-08T05:18:35Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Done with finals!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Busy day with advising and performance and work.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Head spinning with grad school info, but now I know where I stand! I'm so close to graduating now, its freaky. But the grad school application is gonna have to wait another year, cuz I won't be graduated in time to go to GTEP in the spring, cuz they changed the entry date. Thats okay though, cuz there's no way I would be able to finish my degree, do the crazy application, take two tests (and pass them) by September, and not want to kill myself in the process, just so I could jump staight into grad school with absolutely no break.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So, as it stands, I need to apply for graduation! Then I need to do lots of work so I can apply for GTEP in Nov 2006, which would put me in the program in Spring 2007. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;*head spinning*&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Well I'm tired now and think i will go to bed!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:90467</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/90467.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=90467"/>
    <title>Heh heh</title>
    <published>2005-06-07T01:10:04Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-07T01:10:04Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Reading diary entries from three years ago amused the hell out of me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Haven't updated in a long ass time. Busy with the play and finals and such, but all that is mainly over, aside from my performance in musical theater tomorrow. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So, yes, busy. But soon to be not as much so! Working part-time this summer and doing the summer musical project there, so that should keep me busy.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Have an appt. with a GTEP advisor tomorrow FINALLY. We shall then see where I am at, and what in the hell i need to take and how to get into grad school.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Was going to take classes over the summer, but the verdict is still out on that. Everyone is advising me not to because of the stress of the last 6 months and everything. I might take their advice. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tonight is Catie's school program which I am definately attending. I have missed them all so far because of conflicts, so considering she's going to middle school next year. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So today, my creepy Spanish 103 prof from 2 years ago stopped me in the hall. He remembered my full name, my major, that I changed my hair color, and that i like new york. This creeps me out cuz I had him for like 1 term, 2 years ago!!! What the crap?! I mean from some theater profs that I have had a million times over the years, this would not be strange. But this was just weird. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Thanks to everyone who got to come see the play! It was lots of fun!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:90342</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/90342.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=90342"/>
    <title>Jeez</title>
    <published>2005-05-27T18:14:39Z</published>
    <updated>2005-05-27T18:14:39Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I have been so freakin busy!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The play is going great! Thanks to all that have been able to come! I hope you had a good time! And there's still tonight and tomorrow if you haven't seen it yet!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I got a new job! At Portland Metro Performing Arts! Its crazy there, but in a fantastic artsy kinda way!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ummm, spent Monday sick, have no idea why, but it was short lived. Yay!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Really really need to see an advisor about what i need to take this summer! ahhh!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;More later!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:90039</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/90039.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=90039"/>
    <title>Spring Cleaning</title>
    <published>2005-05-13T19:18:03Z</published>
    <updated>2005-05-13T19:18:03Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Green Day-- American Idiot</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Holy crap, the amount of dust in my room was disgusting. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Cleaning cuz I must if I want to live without choking on dust.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rehearsal was a delicious 5.5 hours long last night. Got home at midnight! Tech is this weekend. Then the show! Come see!! Fun times! I'm a ditz (in the show!!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;**********************&lt;br /&gt;From PSU website:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Event: Theater Arts: Blithe Spirit, by Noel Coward&lt;br /&gt;Every Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday May 19, 2005 - May 28, 2005 Starts: 7:30pm &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Direction by William Tate &lt;br /&gt;Scenic and Special Effects by Glenn Gauer &lt;br /&gt;Lighting Design by Aaron Huitt &lt;br /&gt;Costume Design by Sandra Zodnik &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Low Cost Preview: Thursday, May 19, 7:30 p.m. &lt;br /&gt;Performances: Friday - Saturday, May 20-21, 7:30 p.m. &lt;br /&gt;Matinee: Sunday, May 22, 2:00 p.m. &lt;br /&gt;Wednesday - Saturday, May 25-28, 7:30 p.m. &lt;br /&gt;Audio described performance TBN&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Location: PSU, Lincoln Performance Hall, SW Broadway &amp; Market&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tickets: Mainstage Productions&lt;br /&gt;Low Cost Preview - $3.50&lt;br /&gt;PSU Students - $4.00, LH Box Office, 1/2 hr. before curtain&lt;br /&gt;*Other Students/Seniors/PSU Staff - $7.00&lt;br /&gt;*Adults - $8.00&lt;br /&gt;*Service charge applies&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Contact: (503) 725-4612&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;********************************8&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Been up since 6:30am. wheeeeeeee!</content>
  </entry>
  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:xxwithoutyouxx:89654</id>
    <link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/89654.html"/>
    <link rel="self" type="text/xml" href="http://xxwithoutyouxx.livejournal.com/data/atom/?itemid=89654"/>
    <title>xxwithoutyouxx @ 2005-05-11T23:08:00</title>
    <published>2005-05-12T06:09:13Z</published>
    <updated>2005-05-12T06:09:13Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I feel like I don't live in the real world.</content>
  </entry>
</feed>
